Growing Pains

Last week was a tough week. It might have been that I had strep throat. Part of it might have had to do with a rough week at my other job. And maybe it got a little bit worse when I threw my back out this past weekend, and the pain hasn’t really gotten any better, even after a few days. Sometimes you just have these types of weeks, where life seems to throw you around a bit. These are the times when you learn things about yourself. Growing pains. Sometimes you feel like quitting. Sometimes you just want to throw the covers over your head, shut the light out from the world, and sleep away the problems. But you soon realize that this doesn’t solve anything. So you muster up any strength that you can find, and you face the day.

Lately I’ve been feeling overwhelmed, and I get frustrated sometimes with my forever growing to-do list. Last week was discouraging when I was sick, because I wasn’t able to tackle anything, and my list just kept on growing. So many thoughts, ideas and tasks running around in my head about trying to turn this dream of mine into a business, and a reality. I want this so badly, it’s something that I love. Creativity flows through my veins. It’s part of who I am. And so I keep climbing this mountain. I know that life isn’t easy, and starting your own business is definitely hard, but I know that it will be rewarding.

As this new week continues, I find myself still struggling with these thoughts. How to have joy in the midst of physical pain. How to not let these types of weeks steal my happiness, my fire for life. This past week God taught me a few things. Forgiveness. Patience. Trust. These lessons are hard to learn, but they are also incredibly rewarding. I can’t do these things on my own. I can’t live this life on my own. But God is able. And so I rest in these thoughts and lessons learned. And I find joy in the little things. Like Spring flowers.